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I absolutely hate asking for help, but I don’t know what else to do. I’m a 19 year old female disabled domestic abuse survivor who is in pretty desperate need of housing. This is the second time that my mom, sister, and I have been homeless since leaving my abusive step dad in 2008. My mom started dating my abusive step dad when I was two, so I don’t know a life without him. He tore down my self esteem and prevented me from having a childhood as well as having friends, and once we left him (I was 14) I hoped that things would be better, but nothing really improved. My mother and I do not get along, and it is extreme, which most likely stems from her life being a rollercoaster as well, but she is constantly at my throat and I can’t handle this constant anxiety coming from my home life anymore. Right now I am relying only on my sex work (I sell my nude photos) in order to buy food and necessities for my entire family. Because of this I am unable to save anything because I don’t make very much money at all and I have been forking over cash to many people who don’t understand the stress and strain I’m under. I have dealt with constant bullying at home (and at school, before I graduated) my entire life, as well as constantly being evicted and moved around and without basic needs such as food and clothing. I’ve lived in over 20 places so far and have attended 10 schools in my life, and I’d really love to stay somewhere for more than a few months for once. Currently, there is nowhere for me to stay besides my cousins two bedroom, one bathroom with 5 other individuals. I do not have a bed of my own, and I have a chronic bone disease as well as other chronic bone problems, so I’m in extreme pain 24/7. I also have anxiety and ocd, so as you can imagine, my mind is being exposed to a very negative environment and I have finally admitted to myself that I am depressed, and have been for a very long time. I want to begin my journey to happiness. That starts with getting away. I need help with housing. I am looking for funds for only myself as my family (although I’m sure they have good intentions, and I know I shouldn’t be making excuses for them) are very toxic and I am fighting nightly anxiety attacks being around them on top of my heavy amount of stress, so they will not be coming with me(my mom is saving for a place for she and my sister.) I need roughly $4,200 to afford to move into an apartment (a few months rent in advance, to cover myself if I don’t make enough one month until I am accepted for disability and find a part time job, furniture necessities, and groceries. Also money to pay for my wonderful dog to be able to live with me.) I apologize if this is scattered, but I’m explaining this the best I can while enduring a migraine I’ve had for two weeks and my hands shaking with anxiety(I’m a mess right now), so please forgive me if it is. Even $1 is help, and I ask that if you can’t afford to help, please share this. I appreciate everyone taking the time to read this so so much. I love you all, please remember that if you ever need someone to talk to, I’m here for you. xo Amber